Hate random depressive fits

[letterblade]

Haaaaaates them.

Well, that and the fact that my back was screaming out in pain all day yesterday.

Got home, slept, and curled up with laptop and cat because it was the only thing I was capable of doing. Furry purrbox in ear while I looked into PHP/MySQL sitebuilding and realized it won't be QUITE as insane as I thought to switch letterblade.net over to a database-driven site? Not as bad as the rest of the day.

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First step is admitting you have a problem, sure. The thing after the first step, and probably before even the second step, is adjusting to the concept that you deserve to have it solved. That the pain and difficulty it causes you isn't your proper punishment.

Not as high-functioning depressive as I thought right now.

Tried to make an appointment with my last-seen doctor to get back on my meds, but she was on vacation. Doctor recs in the Boston area, pref. ones free with meds to those who have been on them before and know they work for them? Also a physical would be nice. And have a few TMI questions. Mergh.

Time to start using my health insurance and sick time.

Comments

[damarie.livejournal.com]

I recommend Dr. Susan Racine - her office is at Caritas Carney. She let me cry all over her last winter when my life was making its final slide into anxiety ridden hell and gave me Wellbutrin, which helped considerably. She's the only doctor I've been to who actually spent time interviewing me instead of having the MA do it. Also, she likes cats!

[mentalhygiene.livejournal.com]

Dr. Philip Reimherr in Lynn was really good when I saw him -- explained my situation, explained what meds I'd been on and which had worked, and he prescribed me same. However, I've not seem him in a while and Lynn keeps telling me he's not taking new patients, although NSMC's website doesn't mention that. :/

No clue about actual physical health doctors. NSMC might be able to direct you to someone: here (http://nsmcphysicians.partners.org/), but it's just a doctor search and thus kind of a crapshoot.

[delerone.livejournal.com]

*offers tea and sympathy* I see Dr. Chris Palmer at McLean, who is great and very free with drugs, if a little weird in a psychiatrist-y kind of way. If you're insurance won't cover him, though, you might have too look elsewhere - he's pricey.

If you need therapy, I'd be happy to ask my psychologist for recommendations, too. She's amazing, and most of the people she works with seem to be pretty good as well.

[lucky-otter.livejournal.com]

If you wind up building a site in PHP + MySQL, I strongly suggest you consider using a framework for it. It'll handle a bunch of things for you and make it a lot easier to put together a site, and will probably lead you to write better, more maintainable code than you would starting from scratch.

Actually, you're probably better off using a CMS to begin with. Check out Drupal: http://drupal.org/