Ever wondered what it might be like to try to kill somebody with a mind meld?

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Within the meld, with memories and lies in shreds around them, he still reached out. Two broken fingers in the darkness. Cold heart beating wet and meaty in his hands. It was like a blood kiss, like a strangled man hardening as his tongue blackened, a masochism so profound it revolted even one who understood. The brokebacked puppy whimpering love beneath the euthanasia needle. But, no, worse. Worse.

The killing meld was but a thought or two away from the marriage bond. But a breath and a twitch of the hands. He had known T'pel like this, T'pel this deep. His will wrapped round her medulla--except then he hadn't squeezed down, made her heart stutter in her chest--T'pel!

He was murdering this man. This man whom he knew as intimately as a lover. This man who loved him. This murderer.

The simplicity of it all blazed through their brains like stars upon stars. White light drenched them. His hands were burning, his hands were covered in blood, his hands held a naked life, helpless and wriggling, and squeezed knuckle-white and he wasn't fighting him, why wasn't he fighting him, didn't he know he was going to die?

His hands clutched. His hands spread like hawk wings over the desert. He was dying. He was dying too, naked together with him in the endless sand. Muscles clenched all their lives were slacking. His life was good, his ship solid, his sun hot. Somewhere far, far away black eyes stared half-lifeless at the ceiling, at the opening gates to beyond, as with one last silent scream he tried, tried to finish it.

He couldn't. He failed. He sprawled dry-mouthed in the sand for the vultures.

The meld snapped with a flailing. The murderer who loved him was still alive. He could not, could not, go on.

Comments

[kaitou-marina.livejournal.com]

Ohhhhhh, that scene, that scene, I remember that scene. This is gorgeous! I love it! Ah, it so fits it!

I miss Voyager so much T.T

[wired-lizard.livejournal.com]

*jawDROP* you DO? Wow! this is like my pet favorite obscure episode/character which almost nobody knows! *is impressed by your Voyager 1337ness*

I miss Firefly more, I'll admit. XP But there's some lovely, lovely fanfic-inducing crack in Voyager, yes there is. :D

[kaitou-marina.livejournal.com]

That scene (and episode) left quite an impression on me, I'll admit. I thought about it for weeks afterwards.

I understand the missing of Firefly XD But, with me, Voyager wins for pure nostalgia factor. I miss being glued to my TV every week to catch that crew.

[wired-lizard.livejournal.com]

Heheheh, I've been thinking about it for, oh, a decade afterwards. Hence the spurting of random fic from time to time. ;)

Yeah, Voyager was my TV glue, and I do miss that. *basks in the Voyager nostalgia* Complete with my mother complaining about my watching it so religiously--"is it the voice again?" [referring to Janeway]

[kaitou-marina.livejournal.com]

...oh my god it HAS been a decade now, hasn't it? I was just remembering when they did that two parter for the 30th anniversary of Star Trek where they went back to 1996 San Francisco. Wow how time flies!

AHAHA, what was your mom's issue with Janeway's voice? XDDDDDDDDDD

[wired-lizard.livejournal.com]

It HAS been a decade! more since the series started. V. scary, ain't it?

*snork* It is an odd voice, you have to admit, although us regular viewers got used to it pretty quickly. ;)

[heavenscalyx.livejournal.com]

--"is it the voice again?" [referring to Janeway]


Hee hee hee hee hee.

We saw Mulgrew in "Tea at Five" a couple of years ago when it was in Boston. She was FABulous, both as young Katharine Hepburn and elderly Hepburn, and her voice was perfect. She was funny, she was constantly in motion, it was wondrous. I'd see the play again.

... although if it were in competition with "Search for Signs of Intelligent Life in the Universe," I'm afraid my girl Lily would win hands down...

[wired-lizard.livejournal.com]

Oh, cooooooool...I didn't know she did stage acting too!

I've never been a theater-watcher myself, at least not until I got to college and things were local (and free ;)), but that sounds like it must have been a lot of fun. XD

[mentalhygiene.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, stupidly, I forget how awesomely fab your fic is. Oh voyager. I love the meld. The sensoriness of it. How the mind is *sense*.

[wired-lizard.livejournal.com]

BAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH...*dies of crossover crack*

I can see a bit of Stabler about the nose, perhaps...but still good crossover crack!

*snugs* thank you, hon! (And your fic is awesomely fab too, btw, and it's a rare day that I can forget it. ;))

[mentalhygiene.livejournal.com]

That would be more crack than is logically or legally feasible, I think. :-)

(I think I would not be so confused if I actually *knew* who was being melded. The meld-ee?)

I still wish I knew your fandoms better ... (most of them: at all), and I forget a lot of things lately. But ee, melding fic. And angst. Which is yay.

[wired-lizard.livejournal.com]

The meld-ee? Suder, my pet OCC in this fandom. Psycho Betazoid played by Brad Dourif.

Am contemplating uploading the episode in question to my server or somesuch. Interested? ;)

I wish I knew your fandoms better too, dude. ;)

[mattador.livejournal.com]

Wow, well-done.

[wired-lizard.livejournal.com]

Thank you! XD