Hate random depressive fits

Haaaaaates them.

Well, that and the fact that my back was screaming out in pain all day yesterday.

Got home, slept, and curled up with laptop and cat because it was the only thing I was capable of doing. Furry purrbox in ear while I looked into PHP/MySQL sitebuilding and realized it won't be QUITE as insane as I thought to switch letterblade.net over to a database-driven site? Not as bad as the rest of the day.

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First step is admitting you have a problem, sure. The thing after the first step, and probably before even the second step, is adjusting to the concept that you deserve to have it solved. That the pain and difficulty it causes you isn't your proper punishment.

Not as high-functioning depressive as I thought right now.

Tried to make an appointment with my last-seen doctor to get back on my meds, but she was on vacation. Doctor recs in the Boston area, pref. ones free with meds to those who have been on them before and know they work for them? Also a physical would be nice. And have a few TMI questions. Mergh.

Time to start using my health insurance and sick time.