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mllelaurel with the girlfriend, the Utena myu, and PGSM in tow. The first resulted in a lot of geeking about Doctor Who (as they are both Who-nuts), the second resulted in a lot of the first drooling over fem!Touga (and I must say, he's quite hot when his wig gets mussy), and the third resulted in us staying up 'til 5 AM watching through approximately the first story arc. Next episode she meets Kunzite; weee!
I made the mistake (?) of mentioning to them that my brain had informed me that, for the 750 words de jour (which I, er, didn't do), it wished to write the Captain Jack of the Harkness making with the going down upon the Doctor of the Ninth. I informed my brain that I didn't feel like I knew nearly enough about either of them, whereupon it harassed me with a tipsy Jack, a bemused Doctor, and thoughts of, er, dancing for quite some time. But the longer I listened to two well-informed Dr. Who geeks do their geeking about the show...and novels...and audios...the more I realized that I didn't know shit about this series.
They attempted to convince me that I did and that I should still write the, er, dancing. Merrrgh. How am I supposed to write in a universe where I don't know whether the protagonist is affected by alcohol? Particularly in such a huge, well-established fandom, with such an immense sprawly segmented canon? Aflack.
Was at least able to learn that the dear Doctor has human anatomy.
Today Cyn was sick and floppy for the entire day, which means I spent all my time taking care of her and cooking for her, between doing all the laundry and a major grocery shopping. I feel housewifey and worn thin, and my back and hands are Not Happy. I settled down in the laundromat with a notebook, intending to write the, er, dancing, already, and instead waffled around trying to write a PGSM pairing which I've had in my head for quite some time, but have never found the right angle on. Tried to write their first proper meeting several times, none of which worked, and then finally gave up and cut straight to the well-darn-we-just-slept-together wibbling. Well, wibbling on her part. He's a littleman-whore sweetheart, so no wibbling from him.
Ayup, het. This is a rare case of what I've come to think of as my "yente" pairings: taking two characters who, from independent analysis, would be quite compatible, but who have not necessarily much subtext or even interaction, and finding some excuse to get them together. (In this case we've got two built-in yentes, Usagi and Mako-chan, so getting them together was not a problem.) By itself the pairing is not interesting, but I'm planning to set it up as contrast for his canon romance. Phwee.
For the record, I'm talking about post-series Jadeite/Naru. Yes, I know I sound like a loony. But they could be cute!
And, yes, I do also possess a rather strong post-series Beryl muse. I'm actually quite fond of her.
Oh, PGSM, PGSM, PGSM. I am having so much NRE with this fandom. I want to fall into its shiny colored-contact-wearing eyes and write sprawling multi-part fics. But at the same time, I'm not sure I've ever been in a fandom this claustrophobic and moribund. SRSLY.
The moribund part is probably mostly explained by the fact that the series is a few years old, obscure, never released in the States, and tends to be dismissed by most people on the grounds of "Japanese drama, must suck." What fandom there was seems to be mostly dead or dying at this point. The site with all the really nice screencaps just disappeared, and I and my iconbunnies mourn. Now I've been in a few other moribund fandoms, like Utena, and been similarly frustrated. But moribund and large, or even small but relatively varied and open-minded (like Utena), is still a fairly comfortable place to hang out.
But this fandom is tiny. Okay, I've been in small fandoms before. Myst, for one. But I was in Myst when it was terrifically active and spawning wonderful fic left and right; we had this little writer's circle thing going at MC for a while, which was wonderful and interactive and creative even though there were maybe only five or six dedicated and talented folks. But small + moribund is never good. And from what I've seen of it, the PGSM fandom isn't just small and moribund, it's...close-minded isn't quite the word, but everybody has their Thing and nobody seems to pay much attention to anything that isn't already somebody's Thing.
I noticed this when I went and posted a pile of BDSM-heavy ficlets and realized, from the two responses I got, and from looking at the hits, that I am the only person in this fandom who reads, writes, or even thinks in BDSM terms.
That's bloody disconcerting.
I poked around the archive and came to the realization that the slice of the fandom represented there breaks down as follows:
- A moderate handful of folks doing gen or non-smutty canon-het.
- About two writers apiece for the following most popular fanon pairings...
...Nephrite/Ami. (I like this pairing; it's got a lot of potential and can be both very character-interesting and very hot. It's also got the most going for it in terms of canon support, imho; or rather, one half of it is at least entirely text.)
...Rei/Minako. (I tend to mostly ignore this pairing, which is entirely a personal choice in my reading of Rei's subtext. I interpret Minako (who through most of the series I view as Asexual Due To Extenuating Circumstances) as her platonic best enemy, and Ami as her girlfriend.)
...Zoisite/Minako. (I entirely ignore this pairing. I can see how somebody can read it in if they pick up on Zoisite's slight subtext of 'she's a respected enemy' and ignore the much louder subtext of 'I'm gay and in love with Endymion.' I can even see how somebody would find it interesting. But I just...mergh.)
- One writer doing a mix of gen and canon-het and vanilla Endymion/Zoisite. (As you might guess from the above, I love this pairing. I take it as Rapidly Approaching Text that Zoisite is madly in love with Endymion. Whether or not that's returned is ultimately up to interpretation, but I tend to think it is, especially if by 'returned' one means 'collared.')
- One writer doing my favorite area of subtext, which is say 'most if not all Shitennou are sleeping with each other at some point.' Very well done, and delightfully angsty and dealing with a lot of the shit going on in the series, but still fairly vanilla. <3 her work though.
And that's it.
TINY li'l fandom! And on the whole entirely uninterested in most everything I'll write.
......I need to introduce more people to this show now.
I've lost the momentum of this post, as I got distracted by the urge to write a long multi-part essay on the subtext of PGSM and why I read the show the way I do.
Mrr.
Should type in and continue my Jadeite/Naru at some point. Job interview tomorrow. Sick girlfriend napping in bedroom, probably won't be up again tonight even though she claims she will. Lots of laundry to put away, including sheets for said girlfriend's bed. Mrgh.
The end conclusion? Feeling quite isolated from the fandom portions of my f-list. Feeling quite isolated from fandom in general. Being on the outside in a tiny fandom doesn't help. Hrm.
Heh, I was just stalking friends of friends and some PGSM communities and doing some friending. Hi, any of you who happen to be looking at this. Not the best introduction to my journal, sadly.
So yesterday I visited
mllelaurel with the girlfriend, the Utena myu, and PGSM in tow. The first resulted in a lot of geeking about Doctor Who (as they are both Who-nuts), the second resulted in a lot of the first drooling over fem!Touga (and I must say, he's quite hot when his wig gets mussy), and the third resulted in us staying up 'til 5 AM watching through approximately the first story arc. Next episode she meets Kunzite; weee!I made the mistake (?) of mentioning to them that my brain had informed me that, for the 750 words de jour (which I, er, didn't do), it wished to write the Captain Jack of the Harkness making with the going down upon the Doctor of the Ninth. I informed my brain that I didn't feel like I knew nearly enough about either of them, whereupon it harassed me with a tipsy Jack, a bemused Doctor, and thoughts of, er, dancing for quite some time. But the longer I listened to two well-informed Dr. Who geeks do their geeking about the show...and novels...and audios...the more I realized that I didn't know shit about this series.
They attempted to convince me that I did and that I should still write the, er, dancing. Merrrgh. How am I supposed to write in a universe where I don't know whether the protagonist is affected by alcohol? Particularly in such a huge, well-established fandom, with such an immense sprawly segmented canon? Aflack.
Was at least able to learn that the dear Doctor has human anatomy.
Today Cyn was sick and floppy for the entire day, which means I spent all my time taking care of her and cooking for her, between doing all the laundry and a major grocery shopping. I feel housewifey and worn thin, and my back and hands are Not Happy. I settled down in the laundromat with a notebook, intending to write the, er, dancing, already, and instead waffled around trying to write a PGSM pairing which I've had in my head for quite some time, but have never found the right angle on. Tried to write their first proper meeting several times, none of which worked, and then finally gave up and cut straight to the well-darn-we-just-slept-together wibbling. Well, wibbling on her part. He's a little
Ayup, het. This is a rare case of what I've come to think of as my "yente" pairings: taking two characters who, from independent analysis, would be quite compatible, but who have not necessarily much subtext or even interaction, and finding some excuse to get them together. (In this case we've got two built-in yentes, Usagi and Mako-chan, so getting them together was not a problem.) By itself the pairing is not interesting, but I'm planning to set it up as contrast for his canon romance. Phwee.
For the record, I'm talking about post-series Jadeite/Naru. Yes, I know I sound like a loony. But they could be cute!
And, yes, I do also possess a rather strong post-series Beryl muse. I'm actually quite fond of her.
Oh, PGSM, PGSM, PGSM. I am having so much NRE with this fandom. I want to fall into its shiny colored-contact-wearing eyes and write sprawling multi-part fics. But at the same time, I'm not sure I've ever been in a fandom this claustrophobic and moribund. SRSLY.
The moribund part is probably mostly explained by the fact that the series is a few years old, obscure, never released in the States, and tends to be dismissed by most people on the grounds of "Japanese drama, must suck." What fandom there was seems to be mostly dead or dying at this point. The site with all the really nice screencaps just disappeared, and I and my iconbunnies mourn. Now I've been in a few other moribund fandoms, like Utena, and been similarly frustrated. But moribund and large, or even small but relatively varied and open-minded (like Utena), is still a fairly comfortable place to hang out.
But this fandom is tiny. Okay, I've been in small fandoms before. Myst, for one. But I was in Myst when it was terrifically active and spawning wonderful fic left and right; we had this little writer's circle thing going at MC for a while, which was wonderful and interactive and creative even though there were maybe only five or six dedicated and talented folks. But small + moribund is never good. And from what I've seen of it, the PGSM fandom isn't just small and moribund, it's...close-minded isn't quite the word, but everybody has their Thing and nobody seems to pay much attention to anything that isn't already somebody's Thing.
I noticed this when I went and posted a pile of BDSM-heavy ficlets and realized, from the two responses I got, and from looking at the hits, that I am the only person in this fandom who reads, writes, or even thinks in BDSM terms.
That's bloody disconcerting.
I poked around the archive and came to the realization that the slice of the fandom represented there breaks down as follows:
- A moderate handful of folks doing gen or non-smutty canon-het.
- About two writers apiece for the following most popular fanon pairings...
...Nephrite/Ami. (I like this pairing; it's got a lot of potential and can be both very character-interesting and very hot. It's also got the most going for it in terms of canon support, imho; or rather, one half of it is at least entirely text.)
...Rei/Minako. (I tend to mostly ignore this pairing, which is entirely a personal choice in my reading of Rei's subtext. I interpret Minako (who through most of the series I view as Asexual Due To Extenuating Circumstances) as her platonic best enemy, and Ami as her girlfriend.)
...Zoisite/Minako. (I entirely ignore this pairing. I can see how somebody can read it in if they pick up on Zoisite's slight subtext of 'she's a respected enemy' and ignore the much louder subtext of 'I'm gay and in love with Endymion.' I can even see how somebody would find it interesting. But I just...mergh.)
- One writer doing a mix of gen and canon-het and vanilla Endymion/Zoisite. (As you might guess from the above, I love this pairing. I take it as Rapidly Approaching Text that Zoisite is madly in love with Endymion. Whether or not that's returned is ultimately up to interpretation, but I tend to think it is, especially if by 'returned' one means 'collared.')
- One writer doing my favorite area of subtext, which is say 'most if not all Shitennou are sleeping with each other at some point.' Very well done, and delightfully angsty and dealing with a lot of the shit going on in the series, but still fairly vanilla. <3 her work though.
And that's it.
TINY li'l fandom! And on the whole entirely uninterested in most everything I'll write.
......I need to introduce more people to this show now.
I've lost the momentum of this post, as I got distracted by the urge to write a long multi-part essay on the subtext of PGSM and why I read the show the way I do.
Mrr.
Should type in and continue my Jadeite/Naru at some point. Job interview tomorrow. Sick girlfriend napping in bedroom, probably won't be up again tonight even though she claims she will. Lots of laundry to put away, including sheets for said girlfriend's bed. Mrgh.
The end conclusion? Feeling quite isolated from the fandom portions of my f-list. Feeling quite isolated from fandom in general. Being on the outside in a tiny fandom doesn't help. Hrm.
Heh, I was just stalking friends of friends and some PGSM communities and doing some friending. Hi, any of you who happen to be looking at this. Not the best introduction to my journal, sadly.