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letterbladeSince I am massively, massively overdue for one. I mean, I don't think I've done one since March or so.
RL and other practicalities.
Since March I have:
- met the lovely![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
yunatwilight at a D&D game (thank you heavenscalyx!), with whom I have shagged like a bunny, pooled finances, gotten involved in local kink and poly groups, shared minds and projects, and generally fallen very deeply in love. We are sexually open, both individually and as a couple (and I am still attempting to embark upon my quest to see if males of the species, y'know, exist, never mind want to sleep with me and are pleasant and attractive and in the Boston area), but not so much open to one of us having an outside romance, but seeing as I'm not the romantic sort, that doesn't much hamper me.
- quit my crummy cafe job and moved, after an unexpectedly failed interview, into the equally crummy world of temping. However, if everything goes right, I'm going to be working full-time again starting Friday.
- having quite a few alarming money-crunches, which is a kind of fear I've never really had to deal with before. I think we're out of the worst, though, what with work starting Friday and all.
- moved to a comfortably large first-floor apartment in the very far corner of Somerville, about a mile from Davis. Three sizable rooms (currently bedroom, living room, and studio), a ginormous kitchen (no dishwasher, woooeee!), one tiny moldy bathroom, a narrow little back hall evidently built with supermodels in mind, multiple walk-in closets, and cat-friendly. Once I am financially stable and we've finished painting the place, we'll be getting one! In the meantime, we are welcome to visitors, though it's still rather a mess. Directions available upon request to folks I know well enough to have over to my house. No proper crash space yet (ie, lack of couch), but we are working on it.
- played video games besides Myst for the first time evah. Very disconcerting.
- made, as it always goes, several new friends, and lost touch with many more. Part of the latter is due to my internet time being severely curtailed due to wacky schedules and, until recently, very limited computer availability. I'm going to be trying to keep up with livejournal and emails more now, although the latter may have to wait until either of my webmail accounts works again. I mean, WTF?
- DANCED WITH FIRE WHEE.
Personal matters.
Possibly as a side-effect of living with a monk (though not a celibate one, thank all relevant deities), I've started having some rather startling metaphysical experiences. I am considering forming a filter to discuss them further, assuming I get comfortable enough to post them at all. Suffice it to say that I am no longer very much Jewish, and despite my entirely skeptical and materialist upbringing, well...there are things out there it didn't address. I also have a very shiny dagger. ^^
I have become...well, less depressed. Or rather, my depression has mutated from escaping from everything and contemplating escaping life itself to wibbling copiously about jobs, careers, and what in sam hell I want to do with myself. For some reason I continue to toss around the idea of law school. ?!
On the other paw, I am completely over my submission-related BDSM angst.
My relationship with my parents has deteriorated considerably, and my step-grandfather on my father's side passed away. I never knew my grandmother's first husband, and my maternal grandfather is a fundamentalist moonbat, so it was something of a shock to lose one of the very few of my older relatives I know at all. It's also a shock, though, to contemplate living apart from my family at all, seeing as I've never officially moved out of my parents' house until July this year.
Also, as you might have noticed recently, I am juuuust beginning to break the near year of writer's block that followed the completion of Arcana Viscera. Which leads into...
Fandom stuff.
First off, obviously, I'm getting sucked into FFX fandom to a certain degree by a fascinating world and cast of characters, a vague mess of bunnies, and a rather strong Tidus-muse, who is very distracting when he is naked, and who by all rights should be naked at the times that he isn't. (Tidus-muse says: Oy!)
The downside of having a Tidus-muse is that it's harder to write about Jecht. XP
Also, if I can ever shed a few pounds about the waist and arms and get my paws on the dress, I am SO cosplaying Lulu.
I probably will wind up participating somewhat in the FFX fandom, to the extent probably of joining some comms and posting some fic if and when I write enough to bother, but I don't think I have the time and the energy for full-blown fandom entry anymore. It's not that I've been scared off by the wank or the pettiness (after all, I was happily in the FMA fandom for months XP), more a combination of the following two factors: time and energy crunches due to adjusting to the working world and living full-time with a partner, and the it's-harder-to-keep-up-with-internet-social-groups-when-you-have-RL-ones factor. (Or at least I personally find it to be so.)
yunatwilight has also been introducing me to Kenshin*, which while I'm enjoying immensely (oh, me and my little maniacally evil thing for duels that push characters to their limits), I will probably not be fandoming except for reading fic and possibly writing a bit about Kenshin himself, as he fascinates me. (Plus I want to find an excuse to have him hanging naked in hemp from somebody's ceiling. It seems the thing to do.) We are also watching Slayers and Buffy, but in both cases that is, as of yet, pure fun--perhaps some reading, but probably no writing or fandoming. Xellos* may rock every sock I have ever owned in my life, but I don't think I could write him to save said life.
At this point I can't quite imagine having the energy, time, and will to backtrack down my creative road to finish any of my extant works-in-progress in any fandoms, with the single exception of a Trek fic that's been dogging me for years that I don't much talk about anyway because nobody but me has an interest in it. (Funny how those things go.) That may change; we'll see. There is the possibility that I may come into vast quantities of literary energy due to metaphysical reasons; again, we'll see.
I do also have a few non-fic-related loose ends to clean up, such as doing something with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
utena_inscribed other than ignoring it out of incompetent-mod-terror, fulfilling a promise I made a long while ago to the webmistresses of Empty Movement, and actually, for the love of all that is Gately, reposting the best damn thing I ever wrote on my actual main fic site. @.@
Mostly, right now, I really want to do this meme again with FFX, but it seems wildly unfair to do that with outstanding ficlet requests, so I'll try to wait.
There. That should cover the most important stuff. Of course, I also should reformat my journal at some point, and post the photos of me dancing with fire, and post the photos I took of my girlfriend, and post the photos my girlfriend took of me naked and wrapped in saran wrap...
AUGH. NO TIME.
* I have not yet finished Slayers Next OR Kenshin PLZ GOD NO SPOILRZ KTHNX.
RL and other practicalities.
Since March I have:
- met the lovely
yunatwilight at a D&D game (thank you heavenscalyx!), with whom I have shagged like a bunny, pooled finances, gotten involved in local kink and poly groups, shared minds and projects, and generally fallen very deeply in love. We are sexually open, both individually and as a couple (and I am still attempting to embark upon my quest to see if males of the species, y'know, exist, never mind want to sleep with me and are pleasant and attractive and in the Boston area), but not so much open to one of us having an outside romance, but seeing as I'm not the romantic sort, that doesn't much hamper me.- quit my crummy cafe job and moved, after an unexpectedly failed interview, into the equally crummy world of temping. However, if everything goes right, I'm going to be working full-time again starting Friday.
- having quite a few alarming money-crunches, which is a kind of fear I've never really had to deal with before. I think we're out of the worst, though, what with work starting Friday and all.
- moved to a comfortably large first-floor apartment in the very far corner of Somerville, about a mile from Davis. Three sizable rooms (currently bedroom, living room, and studio), a ginormous kitchen (no dishwasher, woooeee!), one tiny moldy bathroom, a narrow little back hall evidently built with supermodels in mind, multiple walk-in closets, and cat-friendly. Once I am financially stable and we've finished painting the place, we'll be getting one! In the meantime, we are welcome to visitors, though it's still rather a mess. Directions available upon request to folks I know well enough to have over to my house. No proper crash space yet (ie, lack of couch), but we are working on it.
- played video games besides Myst for the first time evah. Very disconcerting.
- made, as it always goes, several new friends, and lost touch with many more. Part of the latter is due to my internet time being severely curtailed due to wacky schedules and, until recently, very limited computer availability. I'm going to be trying to keep up with livejournal and emails more now, although the latter may have to wait until either of my webmail accounts works again. I mean, WTF?
- DANCED WITH FIRE WHEE.
Personal matters.
Possibly as a side-effect of living with a monk (though not a celibate one, thank all relevant deities), I've started having some rather startling metaphysical experiences. I am considering forming a filter to discuss them further, assuming I get comfortable enough to post them at all. Suffice it to say that I am no longer very much Jewish, and despite my entirely skeptical and materialist upbringing, well...there are things out there it didn't address. I also have a very shiny dagger. ^^
I have become...well, less depressed. Or rather, my depression has mutated from escaping from everything and contemplating escaping life itself to wibbling copiously about jobs, careers, and what in sam hell I want to do with myself. For some reason I continue to toss around the idea of law school. ?!
On the other paw, I am completely over my submission-related BDSM angst.
My relationship with my parents has deteriorated considerably, and my step-grandfather on my father's side passed away. I never knew my grandmother's first husband, and my maternal grandfather is a fundamentalist moonbat, so it was something of a shock to lose one of the very few of my older relatives I know at all. It's also a shock, though, to contemplate living apart from my family at all, seeing as I've never officially moved out of my parents' house until July this year.
Also, as you might have noticed recently, I am juuuust beginning to break the near year of writer's block that followed the completion of Arcana Viscera. Which leads into...
Fandom stuff.
First off, obviously, I'm getting sucked into FFX fandom to a certain degree by a fascinating world and cast of characters, a vague mess of bunnies, and a rather strong Tidus-muse, who is very distracting when he is naked, and who by all rights should be naked at the times that he isn't. (Tidus-muse says: Oy!)
The downside of having a Tidus-muse is that it's harder to write about Jecht. XP
Also, if I can ever shed a few pounds about the waist and arms and get my paws on the dress, I am SO cosplaying Lulu.
I probably will wind up participating somewhat in the FFX fandom, to the extent probably of joining some comms and posting some fic if and when I write enough to bother, but I don't think I have the time and the energy for full-blown fandom entry anymore. It's not that I've been scared off by the wank or the pettiness (after all, I was happily in the FMA fandom for months XP), more a combination of the following two factors: time and energy crunches due to adjusting to the working world and living full-time with a partner, and the it's-harder-to-keep-up-with-internet-social-groups-when-you-have-RL-ones factor. (Or at least I personally find it to be so.)
yunatwilight has also been introducing me to Kenshin*, which while I'm enjoying immensely (oh, me and my little maniacally evil thing for duels that push characters to their limits), I will probably not be fandoming except for reading fic and possibly writing a bit about Kenshin himself, as he fascinates me. (Plus I want to find an excuse to have him hanging naked in hemp from somebody's ceiling. It seems the thing to do.) We are also watching Slayers and Buffy, but in both cases that is, as of yet, pure fun--perhaps some reading, but probably no writing or fandoming. Xellos* may rock every sock I have ever owned in my life, but I don't think I could write him to save said life.At this point I can't quite imagine having the energy, time, and will to backtrack down my creative road to finish any of my extant works-in-progress in any fandoms, with the single exception of a Trek fic that's been dogging me for years that I don't much talk about anyway because nobody but me has an interest in it. (Funny how those things go.) That may change; we'll see. There is the possibility that I may come into vast quantities of literary energy due to metaphysical reasons; again, we'll see.
I do also have a few non-fic-related loose ends to clean up, such as doing something with
utena_inscribed other than ignoring it out of incompetent-mod-terror, fulfilling a promise I made a long while ago to the webmistresses of Empty Movement, and actually, for the love of all that is Gately, reposting the best damn thing I ever wrote on my actual main fic site. @.@Mostly, right now, I really want to do this meme again with FFX, but it seems wildly unfair to do that with outstanding ficlet requests, so I'll try to wait.
There. That should cover the most important stuff. Of course, I also should reformat my journal at some point, and post the photos of me dancing with fire, and post the photos I took of my girlfriend, and post the photos my girlfriend took of me naked and wrapped in saran wrap...
AUGH. NO TIME.
* I have not yet finished Slayers Next OR Kenshin PLZ GOD NO SPOILRZ KTHNX.
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Long Ass Response
Date: Sep. 26th, 2006 10:34 pm (UTC)I will respond in order.
On Sex (hehehe... on... **begins daydreaming about Harry/Snape sexing**: sexual freedom = good for your mental and physical health! I hope you find some nice male-type human out there to please you. I admire and respect your openness about your sexual relations (and am frankly, feeling a bit kinked out!)
On Jobs: Seems like you have everything pretty much in perspective. Even though your current work situation is not optimal, you seem to have a few comfortable paths you can take from here on out.
On money: I know how you feel. Money makes me weep, and sometimes, we have to suffer for a while before comng into financial comfort (or at least reaxation). Just keep working hard and keep your wits about you. I know the Benjamins are scary, and make you feel like a unproductive, powerless capitalist slave when you lack them, but you are brilliantly talented, and the Benjamins will be coming your way soon, I am sure (I made a pun, sort of... hehehehe... Benjamins... hehehehe... it's funny because your looking for a boy.. hehehehehe **smack self, returns to typing**)
On Housing: I envy your abode.
On video games: Oh college... you deprive me of my game crack... **wails in agony**
On Friends: Meeting new people and actually becoming friends with them is hard. So much of the time I meet these swell folks, and then we just turn into those kinds of people who smile and hold doors for each other in psssing. I need to work on that, but you seem to be doing just fine!
On fire: Mmmmmmm....
On Religion: Every one lead a different spiritual path in life. Min, just happens to be the path that likes to tell me I'm gonna' die and bugs will eat me. The end. Shiny, right? But I am happy that you have found solice in some sort of faith. Faith is good, and happiness is even better! Good for you and good luck with keeping the faith **Smacks self for second pun**
On Depression: I have a hard time pulling myself out of these funks I get in almost every day now. It's tough, but you seem to be leading a very productive and ver-changing-for-the-better life right now. So, perhaps that has been a significant contributing factor. I am glad for that. Depression can be so overhwelming - making you feel hopeless, worthless and dead. But it is when depression takes a vacation, and you are able to enjoy things, feel passion, be productive and creative that is truly truly wonderful. Good for youa nd I wish you much more happiness (or.. lack of depression)
On Parents: The big first "perminant" move is so hard. There is always this tension when a offspring moves away because suddenly, the parents don't know how to treat this person, who, up until then, they considered their child to raise. They still vies you as an extension of themselves, and so mving away, especially considering the recent death, must be hard for them and for you. It's big, and it's scary, and if it were any more frightening, it would have sharp pointy teeth. But, seeing as it has no teeth, I think it is safe to say that you all will turn out just fine. It's just.. tough right now. Like an overcooked steak.. or something...
On Writing: I want to read it! I shall sooon!
On Fandom: OMG I know how you feel. Getting sucked into a fandom is great and all, but then it TAKES OVER YOUR BRAIN! Everything becomes so concentrated around those characters and that world, and you kiiind of forget reality a bit, or... you associate EVERY GOD DAMN THING IN RL with the fandom! But... fandoms are toooo taisty to give up... or have in moderation... well... maybe not... mmmm... HP..... yummm....
In Conclusion: You = awsome and strong and creative and stressed! Just stay on top of things, or try to be okay with those things you feel are a bit out of your control. Be happy, be healthy, be sexy and be smutty. Enjoy life and all it's facets.
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Date: Sep. 26th, 2006 11:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Sep. 26th, 2006 11:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Sep. 27th, 2006 02:49 am (UTC)Miss you lotsNlots.
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Date: Sep. 27th, 2006 12:17 pm (UTC)I am so sorry for being a crappy correspondent! (I mean, my articles for the Boston Globe aren't nearly on time enough... hehe)
We have to hang out sometime! Considering that I'm gonna be working for a rock opera that meets in Somerville! hehe
*ARRRRGGGGGG!!!!!*
I'm glad things are going well!
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Date: Sep. 27th, 2006 02:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Sep. 27th, 2006 02:47 pm (UTC)*HUGS!!!* Wibbling about the things that you've been wibbling about is perfectly normal to our age and station! I hope all goes well with New Job, and I do want to visit you, soonsoonsoon.
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 10:55 am (UTC)Having seen the people on that team now, the only one who strikes me as having a positive IQ is the one Cyn had a crush on who he swiped from the New York team.
No proper crash space yet (ie, lack of couch), but we are working on it.
Well, you are using stacked mattresses. You could dump the top mattress onto the floor of the studio and sleep on that, Cyn could take the one under it, and someone else could sleep in her bed. (I have a hunch she'd insist on taking the least comfortable bed available.)
I have become...well, less depressed. Or rather, my depression has mutated from escaping from everything and contemplating escaping life itself to wibbling copiously about jobs, careers, and what in sam hell I want to do with myself.
= Situational. Brava.
There is the possibility that I may come into vast quantities of literary energy due to metaphysical reasons; again, we'll see.
*puppy dog eyes* I can be a muse. Cyn always tells me that. (Or is it that I'm amusing?)
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 01:11 pm (UTC)*hugs tight*
I'm a crappy correspondant too, wot. And, dude, what are you doing for the rock opera, and when is it and what is it about and so forth? Coolness!
asldkfjaksjdfakjh I need your help with finding a specific metal song--Enslaved, from what I gather is one of their more obscure albums (not on iTunes, woe!)--for a gift mix I'm making for the GF. Email me? My LJ address works if you don't have another contact lying around...
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 01:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 01:12 pm (UTC)We'll let you know when we get the place painted, but honestly, at the rate we're going, that'll be months...come up any time! There can be more FMA--or we could introduce you to Kenshin. He's purty.
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 01:19 pm (UTC)Well, I could've balanced them out...! And been working all this time, instead of having unemployment insanity.
Well, you are using stacked mattresses. You could dump the top mattress onto the floor of the studio and sleep on that, Cyn could take the one under it, and someone else could sleep in her bed. (I have a hunch she'd insist on taking the least comfortable bed available.)
True--we have awkward crash space. I do not consider awkward crash space to be proper crash space. (Also I don't think we have another set of sheets? Yikes!)
= Situational. Brava.
Not a situation it's easy to get out of, but...
*puppy dog eyes* I can be a muse. Cyn always tells me that. (Or is it that I'm amusing?)
Probably both. XP No offense, but I think in my case that's the old bastard's job. *waves at back of left hand* He's as much a god of the written word as he is of war and the sky.
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 01:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 01:25 pm (UTC)And good god DAMN that icon is distracting. *massive crush/heroworship on KnightsTale!Chaucer* Although I suppose it could be worse, you could've taken it from his first appearance...
Why didn't I think of that earlier? *feels an icon coming on*
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 01:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 01:48 pm (UTC)As for things, they are going well. Only in school half-time this semester, taking Greek and Ancient Philosophy to fill out my Classical Studies major. This of course leaves me ridiculous amounts of time to write, play Dungeons and Dragons, and wish I had never heard of video games, because they keep sucking away my D & D/writing time. I'm the book reviewer for the Concordia paper, which is a PAID POSITION, and even if it's only $50 a month I am ecstatic about getting paid to write. RIHV is going well, but not as well as it was in August, when I was writing 100+ words every day for over a month- zomg, writing exercises are the best thing ever when you get into the swing of them. If you are still writers' blocked we shall have to discuss this later, so maybe I can squeeze some more Fic of Awesomeness out of you and then share in the credit a little by being your beta. XD
Saving the best for last, of course, the girlfriend Megan,
I appear to have written an epic. Now, I just need to translate it into Greek and place it in unrhymed hexameter and we'll have, like, the Arkidiad, or the Toriad. Well okay, as it was about me, maybe the Mattiad, but my name sounds less like it is adaptable into a Greek poem title.
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 04:17 pm (UTC)ARRRRRRGGGGG!!!!
www.ultrasonicproductions.com this is the website for the rock opera! Check it out!
I have several Enslaved songs, which one were you looking for?
I'll post it as an Mp3 of the Day! hehe!
You, Chris, Annie, Lily, Anna, I and whoever else is around, we should all get together and hang!
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 04:23 pm (UTC)*checks out site* Duuuuuuuude! I am so going! (if I can afford it)
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Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 04:41 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Sep. 28th, 2006 11:54 pm (UTC)Oh, you should HEAR the excuses that Cyn's overheard ...
Probably both. XP No offense, but I think in my case that's the old bastard's job. *waves at back of left hand* He's as much a god of the written word as he is of war and the sky.
Yes, but a god of words or of stories?