i have to do everything...

...and i want to do nothing.

gah, how long has it been since i updated this thing? lots and lots of news which i don't feel like going into. lots of rehearsals for various stuff. one show went up, went well, lots of fun.

so much stuff i have to do. so much stuff i want to do. but right now i don't have the energy to do anything. i should be working on the final paper that's due in a week that i haven't started, or the final project for programming that i don't know where to start, or practicing the piano, or something. and if not that, then i should at least be writing or working on one of my other projects. but i just...so tired. it's cold and rainy. there's so much stuff lined up for me to do that i want to ignore it all. and i miss lisa. she visited, left yesterday. i watched her sleeping yesterday morning. i hope nothing will fall apart too soon.

*stares blankly at screen*